我的藏獒开了我的花苞

"How many more months will take for you to wholly accept them? To settle among our ways? You never truly gave them a chance." He treasures his pack so much that he is blind to my feelings.

"They never gave me a chance either. I am replacing my morals and everything I have ever known for them to appease you. What have you done for me Phobos?"

"What else did you wish I\'d rather do? You were at fault just as me the tales which surrounded you was never killed what was I to believe?" His questions hold truth, yes I was equally to blame but I still did not deserve his cruelness. To be charged guilty and undergo suffering I did not deserve it at all.

"I had lived my entire life being surrounded by jealousy and judgment so I grew oblivious to what was happening around me. I had gotten so used to drinking the poison that I was unaware it was spreading. And I wanted you here! I wanted you here at home showing me just how much I meant to you but you chose to spend the entirety of your time with another single female. You showed me your priorities Phobos."

The glow in his eyes dims down as though he belatedly realises what he has done wrong a dejected sigh passes through his lips as he takes a step forward towards my heat only for me to move farther away.

Every time he understands his faults he will try to touch me as a means to apologize and console my negative emotions. "You preferred the company of another female than healing our bond. How many times will you forsake me until I choose to leave?"

"Leaving is not a possibility for you Drah. This is your home and you will stay with me until the end of your days. And that was not what I meant to do with Moira I- Come here, Theia." He aims to embrace me once more but I strike his hand away denying his wishes.

"Perhaps I must follow your behaviour. I shall go and eat my meals in Awan\'s hut or even Drakho\'s without your presence. Who knows what I might do, instead of Argus sitting on my lap I might let the two males do so alternately. Or since you thought I was a harlot I might end up sucking their coc-" His palm clamps roughly over my mouth shutting me up his flaring eyes plunging deep into mine. This is the limit of what he can handle his patience with me has withered.

"I understand you are displeased with me and I will accept it. But you will not speak to me this way." He snarls pressing his hand tighter against my mouth whilst his left is securely coiled around my waist claws poking into the frail flesh of my hips.

"How would you feel if I acted the way you did with my male friends Orien and Aegeus if I ignored your existence to be with them? Why did you bring me here if this was the way you were going to treat me?"

"I will learn to be a better mate. My actions I do not find fault in them but I am unintentionally hurting you. So give me time I will adjust my ways for you."

"Who is Moira to you?" I ask softly my voice stifled the thorns around my heart anticipating his pitiless words so they can freely pierce into the organ and make me bleed to death.

Phobos slowly withdraws his palm from my mouth peering down at me with an emotionless stare. "Moira is...important to me." That is all he says not wishing to elaborate more on their relationship despite finally knowing of my jealousy and my insecurity.

"I wonder what you will do if I stopped feeding you my flesh Phobos. Would you fill your belly with hers?" My lips quiver to the question I ask him closing my eyes to the brimming tears. He makes me feel so inadequate at times as though I have no alternative but to feel insecure and constantly compare myself to her.

Phobos grabs a hold of my locks brutally yanking it down so my face is angled to meet his, a low whimper leaving my mouth. There is no gentleness in his actions he does what he pleases with me this is his way of scolding me for the words I uttered. "Look at me when I speak to you Theia." His voice is austere and unfriendly stiffening my body up faster than winter\'s breeze. He wishes to see my eyes so he can understand me and what I am feeling better. My eyes are his roots in analyzing emotions.

When I open my globes to meet his he leans down closer to me our lips inches away from the other. "There is no other female for me but you, Theia. It has always been you and it will always be you. Only you."

"And Moira?" I whisper gasping as his hand mischievously wanders down my body to settle upon my fleshy bum gripping it harshly to drag me closer to him crushing our bodies together. My breasts press tightly against his toned chest my tender erect nubs teasing him.

"What about Moira?" He asks whilst brushing his lips against the surface of my neck right over the spot where he shall mark me as his. A feeble moan departs my lips to his naughty behaviour as I expose my neck to him further to feel more of his ravishing mouth and he feasts willingly sucking and tugging on my skin with his canines.

"Will you remain as you are with her?"

"I am indebted to her in many ways. She is a good friend to me and I will not reject her to please you." My eyes widen to his words and I am ripped out of the haze he hypnotized me within.

"I never asked you to do that for me. Is that what you think I want from you? To desert her?"

"Yes." He answers with no reluctance as though he is sure of it. He does not know me. My male does not know me at all. I only want a few things like not visit her hut alone without me and not eat her food but mine.

Shoving him away he stumbles back in surprise as I march towards the coat hanger drawing my fur hat, woollen socks, coat and mittens putting them on I pull open the cabin door. "Enjoy your breakfast Phobos and if it pleases you go and eat with Moira in her damn cottage." Slamming the door behind me I stomp my way through the dense snow that heavily blankets the lands.

Dull-witted beast he is so slow to understand certain things. I need to crack his skull in and scream into that brainless void hole of his I-

"Krlovna?"

"Drakho." I halt on my path of rage and turn to regard him and greet him with a smile.

"Where are you off to?" He questions as I pull up my hat that keeps slumping down my head to cover my eyes. It is too big for me.

"To the river. I wish to relax for a while Vdce gave me a day off today from training."

"That is exciting please be careful Luna. Is Krl inside I have some issues to discuss about the pack?"

"No, he is not. He does not like staying in our home he prefers the heat of Moira\'s hut instead.. Why don\'t you check there he might be sleeping on her bed?" Drakho frowns in bewilderment baffled by my words as the cottage door is wrenched open to reveal Phobos whose serious eyes are instantly anchored on me.